Conflicted

So you may have noticed my lack of posts lately. Or maybe not; maybe you don't really care...

After a multitude of emotions and a lot of thought, I have decided to suspend posting to this blog and to Facebook (for the most part) for a while. I'm pretty sure I will post again at some point; maybe soon, maybe not.

But at this point, I am not feeling warm and fuzzy. Here's the rub: all the social networking has made it easy for some people to see what is going on with me, but those folks are not taking the time to share what is going on with them. Friendship, for this small number of people, has gone from interacting to social lurking. My feelings are deeply hurt by the lack of effort being made toward the relationship. Those are not the friendships that I am willing to maintain.

I've wrestled over putting this in the blog or not and how to write it. There are a lot of ways I could have written my thoughts, and I have rewritten this several times, but in the end it is the sentiment that is most important.